You need to let go of everything to relax into the infinite peace and silence. It is the nothingness from which all things come. So it makes sense that you cannot merge with the nothingness if you are carrying something. You must let go of everything: needs, desires, baggage, stories, lists, … Everything. Relax into the infinite silence and allow the energy to flow out of that space, through you, into the manifest world. Think of your needs, ego, self, ideologies, roles, worries, tasks, etc as equipment that you carry with your though the day, like bags and backpacks draped onto you. Now take them off and put them down. Unburden yourself of them and sink into the infinite peace like the most welcoming hot tub or softest bed.
Can you take off the bags full of roles, responsibilities, ego, self and worries that burden you?
