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A Vision For My Next Phase Of Life

A Vision For My Next Phase Of Life

Blissful emancipation. I travel, I think; in coffee shops and on hikes, in new towns and foreign lands I have insights and revelations. I write essays and songs and I make art. I post at my website and have discussions with a small but global friend base of open-minded people who further stimulate insight and thought. Our meet ups are like beatnik revivals – a group of 10-20 friends discussing life theory, science, music, art and philosophy and feeling connected – Amazing people with whom we meet, discuss and discover. All around the world in most towns we have enough friends for a meet-up. Someone knows a cool venue, someone else brings a guitar or cajon. Someone brings a spoken word piece or poem, another the latest research. We have real discussions in the most open way, never judgmental. We are experimenters, and readers and explorers, enthusiastically testing the fences of this life to make the most of it.

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New Band Member! Meet Maxwell – Band Security and Food Tester

New Band Member! Meet Maxwell – Band Security and Food Tester

Our band now feels complete…. Meet Maxwell, my new studio buddy, constant companion, badass world traveler (in training), band security and food tester (he insists). He is 100 lbs of love in a tiny package : ) Yes, he is named after James Maxwell, the Physicist – of course!

Redbubble – How Do I Love Thee?

Redbubble – How Do I Love Thee?

Like any artist, I have longed to see my art used in awesome ways and to offer those who may care to a way to have digital art, originals, and books for themselves. But with such diverse interests, I never quite found the right way to do it. Enter the Market at my new online studio.

From Amazon: all the books from my past lives. From me directly: the occasional original art for sale. And From Redbubble: the coolest use of my digital art and prints that I have ever seen. I tried cafe press, zazzle and Amazon but have never been fully satisfied. I tried Redbubble and have been blown away! The sheer range of very cool things they offer is great by itself. Now dig that the prices are reasonable. I hear the hallelujah chorus as we speak. Check it out!

NEW ONLINE STUDIO AND NEW PATREON!

NEW ONLINE STUDIO AND NEW PATREON!

Recent website hacks were a gift from the universe; a signal that it was time for restating my full reality and reexamining how I operate. So you will find me now here at an entirely redesigned website and with an entirely different method of operation!
My new online studio is a playground for me and mine to write, create, post, and interact. It’s the online equivalent of an open door studio where you can stop by and we can chat and even collaborate. It’s my new online home.
Likewise, I will be spending a lot more time at the online studio and a lot less time on social media. I tried to be the kind of person that lets griefers roll off my back. I really did. I tried to be the kind of person that doesn’t mind negative or disparaging comments. But in the end, I mind. It bothers me, and it’s not worth it. Please forgive me, but I just can’t do much interaction on social media anymore.
I have moved my base of operations to my new studio website and will revel in conversation there with a community of Patrons. Why? To ensure quality connections with an amazing community of people. OK. I am chicken. I admit it. But that’s my truth.
To that end, I have redesigned a brand new patreon, and look forward to growing a worldwide community of friends who share my curiosity for testing the fences of life and humanity. I will still broadcast new essays, songs and art on many social media platforms in hopes of finding my tribe, and I am honored if you follow me there… But I myself won’t really be there.
I will be at my site and can’t wait to welcome you into my online studio! Join me! Together, we will figure out how this life works and how to make the most of it.
– Love, KC
Where Have You Been!?!

Where Have You Been!?!

The short answer is (1) working too much and (2) recovering from an epic website hack that forced me to burn both of my websites to the ground… But mostly working too much.
Work is like smoking. It’s cathartic and addictive, simple and satisfying. All those task lists and spreadsheets, and organization. I emancipate myself, clear my schedule, experience massive creativity and then fall right back into work for work’s sake. The result? Not good.
I’ve been offline from my artistic pursuits or a LOOOOOONG time. About 6 months. That’s 6 months of not finishing my third album, not making new music, not making art and not getting the kind of time I needed for epiphanies about life and being human. My humanity took over my life. I willfully overloaded myself with work – meaningful and useful work that helps people, but work nonetheless, that left no time for what feeds my soul.
The solution finally came to me… I had to stop the work addiction permanently and retrain myself to flow in the creative space once and for all. The universe is kind and wants you to follow your calling. Forces quite beyond me cleared my schedule and showed me what I had to do:
(1) Focus on a strict and small set of three things: the people I love, creativity, and preparation for what’s next. If it does not fit into one of these three categories, it does NOT get my attention.
(2) Here’s the hard one: BURN MY TASK LIST. That permanent paper master that beckons me to fill it with tasks and work ceaselessly to mark them off… It had to go. Task lists do not beget creative flow.
Once I was securely in my newfound creative headspace I had one more important step to make it all stick:
(3) Stop trying to be someone other than me and start aspiring to be what I have always been.
I have tried being just an author and doing things that authors do. I have tried being just a musician and doing things that musicians do. I have tried being just an artist, just a scientist and just a philosopher. All out of fear that if I was what I really am – all of those things – people would not understand what to make of me.
I am  – and if that was not heavy enough to deal with, I am compelled. In any of many great books on finding your calling, they ask what you do even if no one is paying you… even if no one is looking. What do you do that you MUST do… that you cannot live without doing. I MUST seek to understand the intricacies of life and what it is to be human. Because I find it somewhat baffling, continually fascinating, and really challenging to understand – why do we do what we do? What makes us feel the way we feel? What is our connection to each other and to this life? and of course… Why are we here? Where did we come from? and most importantly:  How does it all work?
I study what I call LIFE THEORY – how this life works, what it means to be human – what experiences are unique and what are true for all of us? I want to know which rules are law and which can be broken – testing the fences of this adventure we call existence. To that end, I play the role of connector, creator, curator and catalyst.
Songs, Essays and Art are a means to explore, study, understand and express. I write essays about my observations, I write songs to force myself to find just exactly the right small number of words and sounds to encapsulate an idea, and I make art when all else fails to give me insight.
I am an introvert by nature and revel in solitude but am hoping that maybe my explorations will help someone… or that at least I will not forget them.
The website hacks were a gift from the universe; a signal that it was time for restating my full reality. So you will find me now at an entirely redesigned website and with an entirely different method of operation.
That’s where I have been… Getting my shit together. : )
I apologize – mostly to myself – for neglecting my creativity and am so excited to say that the wild child is BACK!
– Love, KC

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